In memory

the last days were very hard.
One girl in my school died and I knew her. so yesterday and today I realized it and I cried the whole day with some of my classmates<3
She was a beautiful girl and now I wont say more about it.

Yeah, in the last days I get known how friends can help me. They hold me and cried with me.

I HAVE BEAUTIFUL FIRENDS

thx.

And i regonized that the life is a present and irreplaceable.
Maybe you shouls also think about the life...what it is..how it is to you...

Thanks for reading and remember: you don't would loose youre life by anyone else than god...

I love myself,cause the others can hurt me to much

Maybe I should run away from the problems. It works by everyone.

Often I ask myself why I have so much problems?! But then anybody say to me, it was my fault. 

So I think about it: was it really my fault or the life just hates me...

What do you think?

Its hard to life every day for 3 or 4 persons who disappoint me every time 

Is this the life? than I say no thanks..

No more week without you <3

in the last days I had a lot of problems with friends and in school, so I post not so often. Please excuse me;)

Thanks for reading

Strong

one of my good freinds meant to me, that I am mental strong, but I'm not. So I thought about it.

How to define 'strong'? How is a person who is 'strong'?

I don't know but what I know is, I know a lot of 'strong people. To call names: Diana, Jenny, Vanessa, Celine,Finja,Tabea,Philip,Laura,Florian,Marnie,the other Tabea and lots of more persons...
But,why I'm think,they are strong?! I just feel it.

So what Ihave to do is...just fake to be strong,and whenever you see me laught you most can be sure normaly im crying.:(

Like today at school,I'd laughed ,'cause I won't cry. I laughed all the times, but I was so sad:'(

And this is the history behind the smile,so please ask yourself,when you see somebody laugh, if it's really laughing or more crying with a litte scream for help..

thx for reading you guys:))

Maybe it's time to break up

Sometimes I think about a lot of things. Like friendships and so on.
But sometimes I say to myself:whats the fucking main idea of a friendship?! Do you know the answer?

Now to the post title yeah some friendships aren't the best so I ask me should I break up?what do you mean?

Yes and the last days wern't very interesting but hard. I'd need to tell me:

Head up,
Stay strong
And fake a smile
:(

And one more time,I'm sorry maybe tomorrow I'm not so lazy like the last weeks and you get youre pictures;)

There light behind the clouds. You know what I mean;/